Cleanse & Emotions

Okay, so seriously I think I'm about to be over this liquid cleanse stuff. I have something going on with my throat that has me all in my feeling. I want something comforting and salty to eat. Today was just rough. Suddenly cleansing just doesn't seem that important.

The Perfect Vagina

Cleansing...again

So I decided to do this cleanse for the solstice. Not sure how long I'll do it and I'm not going to stress it. I just have to get over the hump of today I think. So far I've had my water, a mason jar of ginger tea, and I'll be drinking some coconut water in a minute. The reason that I haven't had much so far is, because my money was/is super tight and I couldn't get a case of coconut water in time for today so I'm doing what I can. I have oranges in the house so I'll juice them after the coconut water if my husband isn't back with the coconut water. I am even thinking of doing a couple of day with the MC lemonade (sans the smooth move and salt water). I need to get my body back on track, because I look and feel like shit.

As for Christmas, I am thinking or ordering dinner from Zizi's so that I don't fall all the way off the wagon...again. I'm thinking about it.

That's all for now. ;)

Whelp, here we go again.

So I couldn't get my unlimited yoga pass last month, because funds were low. I was going to get it this month, but I wanted to make sure everything was going to clear first. Big mistake. I should've just paid for it when I had the money. Now I won't have it again, because I have to pay for the kids to take gymnastics and capoeira. I must REALLY love my children.

My other goal is to start the Couch to 5k challenge. I have the app on my phone. The weather has been nice. There is one problem I can't seem to get my ass to move from the couch to the 5k. Just pitiful.

I hit this SAME brick wall every year this time. My body starts yearning from a cleanse, but I know I'm going to gorge myself at Thankgiving, Christmas, Kwanzaa, and New Years. It takes about 15 days to correctly complete a 10 day cleanse, so there just isn't a lot of time in between, especially at this point. Christmas Eve is only 12 days away and we get together to watch movies and eat on that day. I'm still not to the point where I don't enjoy and feel pressured to eat socially. The funny thing is that my family doesn't pressure me anymore. They've gotten used to my dietary differentness. It's me. Sometimes the food is SO good that I'm all YOLO with it. If I don't stop, I'll be shortening my life. I'm not getting any younger.

Can somebody please come drag me off my couch? Thanks.

Thanksgiving Fatgurl Sydrome

I don't agree with Thanksgiving as a holiday, but I refuse to miss ANY opportunity to meet with my family. I just make sure that I teach truth when I'm with them. Now, that being said we can go on to the topic at hand.

I ate ENTIRELY too much. I feel back into my old ways of gluttony. I was so full that I was completely mean and surly. I didn't want to move, talk, or anything else. As soon as I got home I had about 3 cups of ginger tea. I mean REALLY stronger ginger tea. I was so spicy that it made my throat burn, but it settled my stomach and helped move all that food through. I realized that I still have a BIG problem with control. This is the time of year that I always think about doing a cleanse, but it's also the time of year that I always fail.

What do you do this time of year to stay on track? I need help. Eating is social and I am a social butterfly. Right now I am a fat miserable social butterfly. My goal is to at the very least stay vegetarian through Christmas, Kwanzaa, and the New Year. I will go back to vegan after that and work on raw this spring and summer. Maybe that will give me time to figure out what to do during the fall and winter months.

That's all for now, because I feel like I'm all over the place. I hope you get the idea.

Um, I don't think this is going to work.

So, I started my morning off with 2 pears and some water. I found that I was burping and having chest pains. I had to go to yoga so I took some vinegar to help settle all that gas. Long story short it didn't work. Plus I found this other blog, because I was trying to figure out why I was craving salt so much. I have a tendency to go extreme and fail rather than be balanced for the long haul. At the end of the day, my lesson for this journey once again is balance. I like savory/salt. I have to learn now not to over-do it before I can even consider cutting it out. I'm not very good at "cold turkey". I usually ween myself on or off of things.

I have the 80/10/10 book on the way and am look forward to gleaning from that. I also am going to order the book Raw Food Made Easy by Jennifer Corbleet. I have to keep reminding myself that life is a journey and not a destination (singing in my head).

The title of my journey is Balance in All Things. That, after all, is what Spirit blesses. Not too good, and not too bad. Just a little of both at the right times and in the right intervals.

Fruit: Day 2 & Such

Yesterday I had the worst craving for something salty. As I sat in a parking lot, waiting to meet my BIL, I stared at the McDonald's sign. I'm not big on The Gold Arches, but what I am big on is FRIES!!! I love them!!! In all honesty, I will probably NEVER give up fries. So as I sat there trying to act as if it were normal for me to stare longingly at Micky D's, they little ones started saying, "Aunt Kesha, I smell sumpin'. Smell like fwench fwies." Thank kids. You such good helpers. I didn't get any fries. I didn't get them, because I realize that this is just part of the journey for me right now. I was fine all day until the evening. Perhaps I should consider making myself a salad in the evening with a homemade dressing. I would love to make a raw ranch.

Anyhoo. So I got up yesterday and today at 5am. Both days we also cut everything off early. Night before last at 8pm, because my husband pleaded his case so convincingly, and last night at 7pm. My husband was on youtube after 7pm claiming that he had to look up some exercises that he was supposed to do at the gym. Right. I have yoga in a lil bit with my yoga buddy Zee, but I'm kinda sore from yesterday so I'm sure I'll look a mess. By the time you hold downward dog for the 100th time you look like a dying bug and feel like one too.

Yesterday I ate oranges, pears, dragonfruit, cherimoya, tuna (the fruit of a cactus), and water. I ate as much as I wanted throughout the day. So far this morning I've started my water and have eaten 2 pears. I am curious, however, as to why I have indigestion so bad. It's like my chest is full of gas. Speaking of gas...

Warning: This is so immature. 

Yesterday, while I was in yoga class, somebody farted. It was hilarious. I couldn't believe it. They just kept going like nothing happened. No excuse me. No nothing.